While I was saddened to hear about former American Idol contestant Paula Goodspeed committing suicide outside Paula Abdul’s house, I wasn’t surprised. What most surprises me about this whole situation is that it took this long for one of the obviously delusional contestants to off themselves (or someone else).
Goodspeed, who auditioned for Season 5 with a rendition of “Proud Mary” that was mercilessly mocked, was a slightly obsessive Paula Abdul fan. So, going through the Idol process probably wasn’t the best thing for her.
After the audition aired, Goodspeed wrote on her MySpace page:
“It’s very hard reading such awful things being written about yourself…..or hearing things being said….. not like alot of people would understand what it’s like having so many haters,” she wrote, “just because I made the mistake of trying out for a singing competition before I was even ready vocally, emotionally and physically.”
She added: “I have to believe there is something good about me.”
For the record, I hate American Idol. I think the early episodes with Simon and the crew mocking obviously delusional people is mean spirited and cruel. Yes, some of them need to be told they’re making fools of themselves. But some of them, like this tragic girl, have deeper issues than an overblown sense of self. My only hope is that this incident makes the producers and editors of the show think twice about who they decide to make fools of when they put together this season’s episodes.